The truth about life is 98% of it you cannot control you’re just subject to what’s going on in the experience of the world.

Yet when it comes to relationships sometimes there’s a push and pull, or a give and take.

Everything we know is a relationship. Also, mindset but that’s not what I’m talking about today.

The big thing about life is we all want to be treated fairly or have our voice heard. When we don’t feel like we’re recognized we get uncomfortable. There is also a difference between want and need.

It’s frustrating sometimes that we do confuse want and need. I want pizza for dinner, I want to go watch a movie at the theater, or I want to take a road trip.

For illustration purpose is a need is air, water, food, shelter, and sometimes companionship. We feel the need to have a companion but a lot of us in today’s world also don’t know how to find the right one because there’s a lot of screwed up people in the world.

Nowadays, I think we don’t really know what we want sometimes. For me sometimes it’s entirely direct but other times I’d rather be asked if it’s okay to go do something with someone.

Basically what I’m trying to state in this post is the degree of control of they’re giving me in the options.

For example we all know we have to do laundry there’s no way around it if we don’t have clean clothes then guess what it’s our fault. No one is going to make you do the laundry except you.

Relationships seem to be based on mutual understanding and sometimes they’re not as mutual as we think they are on a daily basis.

My only free time is over the weekends and sometimes I take side gigs to have a little extra income. On my free weekends I really need to be inventorying what I have and start selling it but right now my friends want to spend time with me. So do I keep putting off doing what I need to do or do I keep going out with my friends.

I don’t want to abandon to my friends but I’m in a place where I really feel like I need to accomplish something whether they tell me I do or not. I tell a few of my friends all the time it’s really me it’s not you.

These are the nights it’s really hard to just be a good person because I feel like I should be just saying no but all the time I end up saying yes. Maybe I’m making the right sacrifice or maybe I’m not. I don’t know. Hopefully I’ll know sometime in life before I have to hit the eternal dirt nap. Thanks for reading, come back for more!